I haven’t been writing because…well there isn’t anything to write about. I threw Cruze on the lunge in the arena a week after the farrier last left (5 weeks ago now) and he was still off on the front right even after the abscess blew and all looked good.
It was depressing.
So I decided to ignore his existence for 6 weeks until the farrier came back out and could shoe him. By ignore I mean doing the following:
- Gastroguard daily for 4 weeks
- A nice cold shower when he came in for dinner sweaty
- Fly spray applied nightly after dinner on his way back out
- Hooves picked clean every other day
- Keratex applied twice weekly
- Hoof supplement mixed into his dinner daily
- Lots of pats, kisses and head snuggles
So…you know…real neglected.
What I haven’t done is ride him or lunge him or even hand walk him. I watch him run amok in the pasture and play rear/bite with Pete on the daily and he looks sound. Extremely sound. Sound enough to come flying down the hillside to the gate for dinner nearly splatting on his face because homeboy has no idea where his feet are and how to manage his legs.
See below: not lame.
I just haven’t been able to muster up the courage to lunge or ride him again for fear of that persistent NQR on the front right under saddle.
I’m not worried. Yet. He was 100% sound walk, trot, canter and jumping when he was shod up front. I had his PPE and he trotted off sound for every limb and his joints all looked good on xray. Trainer gave me two lessons on him and watched him move very well and even commented on how nice his trot was. Then he ripped his hoof off and went lame. With no other explainable reason for acute onset lameness, I’m blaming his bad feet.
See below: also not lame. Both these videos were taken in the last couple of weeks. Here he is trying to stir up Pete to play, but it was insanely hot and Pete had no interest.
The farrier comes out on Wednesday evening and I’m thinking maybe it would be a good idea to throw him on the lunge and ride him this weekend to see what he is like. It would probably be good information for new farrier (who saw him last time but had not met him pre lost shoes and lameness) to work with.
The problem is that I don’t want to. It has been closer to 7 weeks since I last rode and I should be itching to get back in the saddle. Instead..well, instead I’m dreading it. Dreading the moment I put him on the lunge and I see a head bob. Dreading not seeing it but then feeling the NQR under saddle. Dreading bringing him back into work when he has been out of it for so long and I just know it is going to be a bad ride. Much head dragging. Much can’t bend away from the gate. Add in some screaming. Perhaps another buck/rear dump me move? I don’t know.
The first ride back has to happen. If it doesn’t then there can’t be a second ride back or a third and I know those will be better. Its just…I spent so long imagining my next horse. Imagining how much easier said horse would be at the basic level. And well…he hasn’t lived up to what I pictured. Maybe that was all pain related. Maybe he will surprise me now that he should be feeling great again and come out and be the horse I trialed and loved, but there is a tiny pit of dread in my stomach that he wont be. And then what?
I don’t know. If I put it off long enough maybe I won’t have to find out.